I can’t always talk about sex and porn, can I? Sometimes I feel like revealing a little more of the mundane parts of me, even it it’s just to pretend that I really am a normal person hehe.

So once in a while I might feel like writing about me. After all, that’s why I started this blog - for my selfish side, to talk about me and only me, and feel like people are listening - even if it is in the cyberworld. Really, sometimes I spend so much time in front of this screen that this world feels more real than the ‘real’ one lol.

Anyway, I feel like it tonight so here you go, another peek into me…

A Little Piece of Ponygirl

I’m not much of a ’socially up to date’ person. If I did work a regular 9-5 job, I really wouldn’t have much to talk about at the water cooler. I usually see movies years after they’re gone from the theatres, and I haven’t gotten into a tv show since Melrose Place. This reality stuff does nothing for me and I may be the only person you know who hasn’t seen even ONE survivor-idol-bachelor/ette episode. And quite frankly, I doubt I’m missing anything. Now I know some people are really into it, (not that there’s anything wrong with that hehe), so don’t get mad at me, I’m not normal, remember?

The one thing I do stay up to date with is music. I don’t think I could live without music. I love to go for long drives on country roads with my tunes loud, singing along at the top of my lungs. It relaxes me, revitalizes me and makes me feel. My tastes vary quite a bit, from my first love David Bowie, to my current pussythrob Anthony Kiedis (who has been hanging around in my fantasies for a while now hehe), to all the rock/metal/grunge/whatever bands in between. I always have some kind of music going, even if it’s only in my head.

I love to read, and steal away as much time as I can for that. I’m currently into the (please let it not be true!) last volume of Stephen King’s Dark Tower series - by far and away the most enthralling novels I’ve ever read (and I’ve read a lot). This man is my idol, I think I’ve read every word he’s written. (don’t worry, though - I have no urge to stalk anybody hehe)

Mostly I read in the bath. I lock the door, fill the tub full of girlie smelling bubbles so hot the mirror steams up and there’s little beads of sweat rolling down my neck before I even get in. I get my little space arranged - book, tea, cigarettes, maybe a little puff or two to get a glow - and sink back to enjoy the only real ‘me’ time I get.

I like to take care of my skin, exfoliating and moisturizing and using those funny looking mud masks that are actually quite refreshing.

I paint my toenails red, even in the winter.

I love long, painted fingernails, but mine don’t grow very well. I used to have time to them done (back in my carefree non-mom days lol) and I think I’ll take some time to start doing that again soon.

All these little things I do for myself are just that - for myself. After the stress of my everyday life, it’s nice to smell good and feel soft, relax and get lost in another world for a little while. It just makes me feel so pampered. When I feel pampered, I feel sexy. And when I feel sexy, I can get into all kinds of perverted things. Which is good for you because the one thing I love just as much as reading is writing. And these days the only writing I’m doing is here, where I can let it all hang out heheh.

See? Even when I’m not writing about porn I can get dirty. Which reminds me…I think there’s a bubblebath and a certain gunslinger calling my name. See you soon…

sweet dreams