well I’m all alone today for the first time in a few weeks, but it sure isn’t quiet here hehe. I’ve got some Chilli Peppers playing just like it should be played - really loud - with a mix of old & new stuff set on perpetual shuffle. I love the raunchy style of the old stuff…I could sit here and listen to Anthony Kiedis sing the word ‘fuck’ the way he does all day long hehe. What I hate is the way they bleep this shit out on the radio (not that they play some of those songs but the ones they do…lol). It’s a real pet peeve of mine because I think it sounds pretty stupid. If you can’t say it, don’t play it!

I really think that fuck is a great word! In fact, I happen to fucking love the word fuck. In my opinion, fuck is one of the most expressive fucking words in the english language and everyone should say fuck really loud at least once a day, just to relieve some fucking stress. Seriously, try it - go somewhere that nobody will hear you and just yell it - FUCK - really loud and tell me you don’t feel better

As I’ve admitted before, I’m not much of a lady when it comes to language. Although I keep it (somewhat) reined in while out in public, at home I generally just let ‘er rip. And while I certainly make use of other, equally vulgar expletives, fuck is probably my favorite. I use it for, well, everything!

anger - FUCK (if I’m really mad, that’s usually all I can get out lol)
wonder - ‘what the fuck is that??
pain (ever stubbed your toe?) - oh FUCK that hurt
disbelief - no fucking way!
humor - now that was fucking funny!
desire - wanna fuck?
endearment - fuck you, asshole (no seriously, that’s a term of endearment here hehe)
we even made it into a word of it’s own - when one of us gets mushy, we’re being senti-fucking-mental. Can you just hear some of the wonderful conversations that must go on here LOL. But we have a lot of fun

Fuck has become such a common word in our house (outside the hearing of little ears of course!) that it’s lost that shock value that people seem to assign it, but it’s still a very satisfying word. In fact, seeing as there’s no one around today, I think I’ll just keep cranking the tunes & sing some fucking songs at the top of my lungs. That always puts me in a great fucking mood.

So do yourself a favour - take a deep breath and say FUCK as loud as you can! And if anyone hears you, just tell them Ponygirl says everyone feels better after a good fuck hehe.

sweet dreams

I’ll start this one by saying sorry to Sir Elton for the terrible paraphrasing on the title, but I’m a fan and it seemed to fit hehe.

After making my little public apology, I noticed (who hasn’t) that a lot of pretty famous people seem to be doing that these days too. What’s going on? Are we just more apt feel bad when we fuck up these days, or is it a case of spin doctoring and damage control? With celebrities, I’m sure it’s probably a bit of both, but I like to believe that most of the time, people really are sorry when they loose control.

Which brings up the question of why people have to resort to apologizing all the time anyway. Are we really more offensive these days, or are people just more easily offended? Seems that people have themselves a pretty short fuse lately, and more and more of us are just letting go when we get annoyed. I know I have the opportunity to blow my cork many times a day, whether it be while in my car (damn those terrible drivers!), waiting in a line (why are there only 2 tellers for 20 customers??) or just dealing with the myriad of seemingly clueless people we all come across every day.

Pressure is rife in the world we live in these days, from the store clerk making minimum wage to the highest paid celebrity in the world, none of us can escape it. Global issues, financial uncertainty, job insecurity - all of these things are contributing to the stress and strain we all find ourselves under, so is it any wonder that we see more and more people acting out the equivalent of a 2 year old’s raging temper tantrum? We’ve all thought of saying or doing things that will get us in trouble, but most of the time we’re able, as civilized human beings, to keep it to ourselves. The problem happens when people have just had enough - and it may not even be the current situation, but a build up of everything - they blow a fuse and boom, the next thing you know, they’re begging forgiveness from the whole world.

Apologizing is good - it shows that you’re big enough to know when you’ve fucked up, and secure enough in yourself to go through the humiliation and embarassment that saying sorry often brings. Personally, I’m the forgive and forget type of person. Everyone can have a bad day. Recognizing that you did something wrong and owning up to it takes some balls, in my opinion, and once someone has honestly tried to make amends I think we should all just get off their case and let it go. There are exceptions, of course - physical violence is something you can’t take back no matter how much penance is involved. But when you’re talking about someone going off on a verbal tirade, which seems to be a popular affliction lately, I think people should just be able to let things go. After all, what are words anyway but a collection of letters that if arranged properly can offend anyone no matter what the meaning behind it is!

We’ve all said things we regret. We’ve all said things that, in the light of day, are so obnoxiously wrong that we can’t believe we said them. So why do we get on our almighty high horses when someone in the public light does it? We’re all human, we all fuck up. If the offender is truly contrite, we should accept that momentary loss of control for what it is - a side effect of this pressure cooker of a world we all live in. And get on with our lives.

till next time,
sweet dreams

well I’ve been feeling a bit burnt out the last few weeks. That’s what you get for starting something new then finding yourself swamped in ‘have-to-do’ things. So basically, I got the have to dos out of the way and just couldn’t get the motivation to do anything else. That’s what happens when you spend about 85% of your waking hours staring at a screen lol.

I’ve wondered for a while if I have a problem. You know, that a-word? Am I addicted to the internet and is that why I felt so burnt out lately? There’s a ton of articles that I found, (ironically enough, online) about internet addiction, and here’s a good and somewhat humorous one: Computer and Cyberspace Addiction. While I certainly exhibit some of these symptoms (just ask hubby when he tries to interrupt me hehe), I don’t believe I have a true ‘internet addiction’. I certainly can and do spend time away from the net, even enjoy it. The other thing to remember is that I work online as well. Whereas people who work with computers at a ‘regular’ job can walk away from it after their 7.5 hours, I have a network of sites online that I have to make sure are updated and working properly 24/7. These are my creations, and I’m sure you can understand that I feel close to them.

So between my list of porn links, this blog, contract work, and all the other pages I have out there, I admit that it seems I spend an inordinate amount of time online. And I’ll also admit that I like it. And that I’d much rather be online than socializing with a bunch of people that I don’t really like anyway. I guess that makes me honest, not addicted. hmmm…maybe a tad antisocial too? Oh well. I think certain people are drawn to working online just by nature of their personalities. I’m definitely one of them, and I won’t apologize for that. Just don’t try to drag me away before I’m ready and we’ll get along just fine

But, like anything else, I believe moderation is the key. That’s why I’ve been pretty scarce the last little while - I just had to take some time out. If you feel that you have a problem, with the internet or any other thing that is taking over your life on a level that is unacceptable to you or your family, please talk to someone. Addiction is not a nice thing, but it can be helped.

Anyway…hopefully this will get my ass back into posting - back ‘in the mood’ so to speak hehe.

And I didn’t forget my promise, either. So here you go, enjoy the pictures

sweet dreams

well….hello there! Let me tell you what I’ve been doing in the last little while that’s kept me from updating here in so long. I owe you that much, I think

Here is, in no particular order, what my life has been in the last week and a half or so:

1. 1. Eating a huge amount of turkey with family (mostly girl family, poor guys feel left out haha, wah) - 1 day - it was Thanksgiving here don’tcha know.
2. 2. Recovering from family (and huge amount of turkey, but family mostly) - 1 day
3. 3. Recovering from another cold, probably given to me by someone in said family - I felt so crappy I didn’t even feel a twinge of horny, that really sucked - 3 days
4. 4. Refereeing my sons since they were home from school for the holiday and I didn’t want blood on my nice carpets - 1 day
5. 5. Catching up on all the work I missed from the 3 days lost (see above) - 2 days
6. 6. Fixing my mom’s computer since she has no clue how the thing works and every little bug is a disaster of epic proportions - 1/2 day
7. 7. Trying to set up a stupid wireless network to connect my home computers (it’s simple, it should work, why doesn’t it work???) - 2 days and counting.
8. 8. Making dinner, doing dishes, sleeping and all of that other totally unnecessary stuff - approx 3 days if you put it all together, I don’t need much sleep anyway.

So you can see where some things may have gotten put aside for awhile, can’t you lol. I did get a bit of an update done on my list of porn links, and I even got a free porn site done as well - a hairy pussy one Coochie Closeups…got to keep it all rolling, you know

Now a little something, while we’re on the subject of hairy pussies…if you’ve been reading my posts, you know that this is Ponygirl’s Season of Naturalness hehe - the only thing I’m shaving lately is my legs, and even that’s hit or miss, depending on how lazy I feel when I shower. Now to me, this is a bit of indulgence - hubby likes it this way for a change - but I have to admit, it’s not bad

I think I prefer my pussy shaved, at least around the lip area, but the underarms are kind of a surprise. I don’t know if it’s just because I’m a girl, but my underarm hair doesn’t grow like a guy’s seems to. It’s pretty short and kinda furry looking, and there really isn’t a lot of it. I think it looks kinda neat. I was worried about smelling like a dockworker lol but that’s not happening. I mean, I do shower regularly. And really, the only time I work up a sweat I’m not exactly in a position to care, if ya know what I mean

Anyway, what I thought I’d like to do is take some photos. Or rather, have hubby take some photos, of course he’s all for that hehe. I just thought with the right angle and pose it would look really cool. Plus it would satisfy that little exhibitionist part of me without compromising the shy part LOL. So I’ll be doing that sometime this coming weekend (hopefully!) and when I have them the way I like them I’ll put them up so you can let me know how it looks. ok? ok

Well, that’s it for now, I’m going to try and get some sleep so I can tackle this whole wireless fiasco again in the light of day, when no one’s here. In case I need to throw something, or curse really loud.

till next time,
sweet dreams